Luna Grace Jaeckel was born just over 9 weeks ago.  In about 6 days, when she is just over 10 weeks old, I'll be returning to work.. teaching 2nd/3rd grade at Mackintosh Academy.  These are my ramblings.  My heart is very heavy right now.. and so full.  Full of love for my beautiful girl.. full of anxiety about leaving her in someone else's care.. and full of amazement that this life is in my life, forever.  I think I need to shift my focus on the fear and anxiety to gratitude for what I do have.  I am fortunate to only have to go back to work for about 9 weeks, and then I will be able to be with her again for a couple months.   I want to share this beautiful human and soul with other people..let her spread her light throughout the world.. I also want to keep her all to myself.  She is after all only 9 weeks old.. and so tiny and vulnerable.  I am holding on tight.. and I need to let go a little bit. 
People tell you.. you won't get any sleep, you'll be so exhausted, you will love your child more than anything else, the love you experience will be deeper than anything else.  All of this is true..and completely unfathomable until this beautiful child enters your world.  Or your worlds collide.  I try not to think of it as my world that she entered.  She also has a world.. and luckily our paths have merged.  I can't sequester her in my world.. as much as I want to.  She needs to experience her own world.. which involves me letting go.. at least a little.